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Sunday, November 07, 2004 @1:57 AM

sigh.... juz gt nth to say... except...IM BORN FAILURE... im juz a failure in everythin in life...no use givin me extra chances... cuz i'll juz keep failing..again and again...juz no point u guyz makin frenz like me.... no use livin anywae... sigh.....


Despite your words,
Im a failure.
Placing hope in others,
In you my cure.
"We are all prisoners,
Of our own device."
Because of me,
Im caught in ice.

Blame rests,
On none but me.
Future mistakes,
I didnt see.
Its all my fault,
Im hurt this way.
Its because I fail,
I have to say.

"I was dying,
Nearly had my cure.
But Im to fucking dumb,
Im just failure.
Im hurt worse now,
Then was before.
This pain I bought,
Bought so much more."

My heart blames me,
My mind blames you.
Its not your fault,
Know that as true.
You hurt me,
Because I fail.
My fault not yours,
My heart impale.

You hid from me,
That cause me pain.
Because I was too weak,
To ask again.
At first I saw,
Just a delay.
My amending chance,
Is blown away.

Now a delay,
Just failure clear.
My knuckles bleed,
My shattered mirror.
"Closer" you say,
Like that is better.
Closer is still failure,
"F" my grade letter.

Im a fallen guy,
Cant see the top.
My rampant failure,
Will never stop.
When I fail myself,
I barely care.
But I failed you,
You I couldn't spare.

I dont deserve,
All you've done.
Don't forget Im me,
The worthless one.
I've hurt myself,
And dragged you down.
In my crimson life,
I wish to drown.

I pray release,
You all of me.
But failure and pain,
Are all I see.
I've trapped myself,
And you are caught.
Until that day,
I pass to not.

I've failed, I've hurt,
I deserve to die.
I scream my pain,
I want to cry.
Release, escape,
And peace of mind.
Are barred to me,
I'm left behind.


♥ you and i both loved

-PROFILE.

Name: Muqsit Erfian

Age: 21

Birthday: 14 November 1985

Likes: Playing my guitar!


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